the freak speaks. . .

rejections

the homily earlier is about rejection. some of the things that the priest said that struck me:

“who in here experienced or experiences rejections?”

*i had to smile with that one. so fitting.

“no one is exempted from rejections. one way or another we were rejected by someone we care about”

“rejections hurt so much more if the person who did that to you is someone dear to you, someone important, someone you cherish”

“rejections are part of life. you cannot avoid it. no matter what you do, no matter how careful you are and how mindful you are of others, you will still be rejected but the thing is, you need to learn how to overcome those rejections. how to move on. how to make it a stepping stone to improve yourself”

“don’t let those rejections ruin you.”

now what?

i really don’t like the feeling after you’ve finished a good book, especially if it was a series. you spend longer time reading.

it’s like you were a part of their story. you familiarize yourself with everything. you try to remember things that happened in earlier chapters that were mentioned later.

after the whole series, i just feel lost. like really. i keep asking myself, what now?

dreams that make you smile :)

one thing i liked about sleeping is having pleasant dreams.

nakakatuwa lang na magigising ako ng naka-ngiti. mukhang tanga pero ang gaan sa pakiramdam. yung feeling na kahit alam mong dream lang yun, it’s something to smile about.

parang pag may nakakakilig na scene sa pinapanuod mo or kilig lines sa mga binabasa mo.

basta ang saya lang.

tapos yung characters pa sa dream mo, real people na kilala mo. real people na usually mong nakakaencounter. realistic scenarios na pwedeng-pwedeng mangyari.

alam ko namang you cannot really rely on dreams kasi it’s from your subconscious. something na gusto mong mangyari pero one can hope naman diba? :)

January 18, 2013

Today your vision for your future is clouded by wishful thinking and overly high hopes. It’s good to be positive about where you want to take your life, but right now you might only be hearing what you want to hear — and that is a dangerous road to go down. Reach out for reality check from a good friend or family member. They have an objective perspective and can help you wake up to what is realistic. They won’t be raining on your parade. They’ll just be clearing your vision.

January 19, 2013

Despite the overwhelming good energy that is zooming through the air today, you might not be feeling like a very happy camper. What could be causing you to feel so out of sorts? If you’re completely honest with yourself, you might admit that you have been taking things a bit too personally lately. You would do well to add another layer to your armor — if you let people’s careless comments get you down, you won’t stay focused on the right issues right now.

January 20, 2013

If you’re looking for a romantic partner, you are looking the wrong way. The flirtatious kind of romance is far too predictable for someone as unique as you. Instead, you need to embrace romance in its every incarnation — use music, poetry and film as vehicles to explore your heart and discover new ways of maneuvering through new relationships. Spend less time worrying about how you look and more time thinking about how you communicate who you are. Date less and talk more.

January 22, 2013

If you spend too much time thinking about another person’s motivations, right now, you’ll only get overwhelmed. You won’t be able to predict what they will do next, so why even try? Let them be them and just focus on doing your thing. If you’re waiting for them to make a decision before moving forward, then you’re giving them way too much power. Go your own way, and if they want to come along they will let you know. It’s not healthy to depend on someone to any great extent right now.

it’s amazing but creepy at the same time how every word hits dead on.

i mean it’s just a freakin app but it’s as if it is talking to me. i don’t know what to make of it.

yeah, craziness takes over. again.

*i just found this somewhere. words are not mine.

remember, being happy doesn’t mean that everything may be ok and good. being happy also means that although everything right now is shit, you still CHOOSE to be happy anyway. and that also means that you can still be happy even if th

people who take things for granted

i get really frustrated whenever i see people who do not appreciate what they have.

people who keeps on complaining about the things that they lack.

people who do not know how to be contented.

don’t they even realize how lucky they are for having the things that they have? there people who would kill to have even just a fraction of the things that they enjoy.

people who do not give importance to the people around.

people who only see what they are sacrificing for others but fails to realize the things that others go through just for them.

they think that they are the only ones who get hurt. they are the only ones who sacrifices something.

one small problem and they already think that they carry the burdens of the world.

those selfish and self-absorbed people who only think about themselves.

i really hate them.

analogy

through twitter, ang dami ng nagrarant na mag-suspend na daw sana ang mga universities. yung mga suspensions kasi puro hanggang HS lang.

then may nakita akong tweet saying na “matutulog na ko, sigurado naman ng walang pasok yan eh” 

naisip ko lang na oo nga naman. sa lakas ng ulan at hangin ngayon eh malamang sa malamang wala na talagang pasok. it’s just a matter of time before the universities send out their announcements.

isa to sa mga pagkakataong kahit alam mo na yung mangyayari, mahirap mag-assume. kailangan ng confirmation. naghihintay ng assurance na totoo nga.

parang usapang lovelife lang. lalo na yung mga MU. yung feeling na alam mong may something special. may connection kayo pero walang label. mahirap mag-assume kasi you don’t know where you stand. walang assurance kung ano yung meron kayo. walang confirmation. 

the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now. Next chapter

those moments when you just want to curl up shut the whole world out.

remebering those things, those moments. it’s funny. it’s stupid. i miss it.